Time for an update-

So I get my first shot on Monday. I'm kind of nervous about it, but what am I going to do? My doctor says I shouldn't worry, and that I'll be fine. She says we caught the endometriosis early enough that when the time comes, and I want to start a family my fertility shouldn't be a problem, but only if I start treatment soon. The shots are supposed to help preserve my fertility. Now, I'm not really worried about being infertile, but having to do something to preserve my fertility makes me so depressed. It seems like that shouldn't be something I have to worry about. It seems like that's something I should just have. I don't even really know how to describe it, other than it makes me really really sad. A couple days ago I saw a pregnant lady and I started to cry wondering if I'd ever get that.... I don't know why- I KNOW the disease was caught early enough that it shouldn't be a problem, but I'm still just so depressed about it.

Otherwise I'm kind of nervous about getting the shots because according to research done on the Depot Lupron shots, after the first shot my symptoms will be much worse than they are now, and that I'll actually start feeling better after the second shot. I'll get the shots monthly... thats a whole month where my symptoms will be WORSE than they are now! I don't know how I'll handle that. They're pretty debilitating as is. I've decided to look into acupuncture to help with the symptoms and maybe help with the disorder itself. I've found out my insurance will pay for 30 visits a year as long as I go to their clinic. I think I'm going to try it- not like it'll make it worse.