to many of you don't understand this.

the end.

25 things!

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you.

1- I love to go for walks all the time... Rain or shine!
2- I really don't like doing these surveys, but I always do them anyways.
3- I talk about moving to different places all the time, but sometimes I don't think I have the courage to do it and will probably die in greeley.
4- For a few years now I've been thinking about starting to go by my middle name again, but I don't really know how I'd make that transition. I don't remember how I transitioned last time.
5- I have a cousin in prison and I've been writing to him since he went in.
6- I've seriously considered changing my name a few times...
7- I'm a lot more liberal than people expect me to be.
8- I have been bitten by an alligator.
9- I do relay for life everyear and would do other cancer fundraisers if I had the time/money.
10- Drama queens annoy me... a lot...
11- I love music and how it can affect someones mood as much as it does.
12- I am a quarter norwegian.
13- I pick up other peoples accents fast when I'm around them, but I can't immitate it when I'm away from them to save my life.
14- I love learning other languages.
15- When I started at UNC I wanted to be a doctor.
16- I don't know what I want to do now...
17- I tried to join the army, but they turned me away because my lungs revolt against my body constantly... aka- I have bad asthma.
18- On that note, one time I coughed so hard I ripped a hole in my lung. It was incredibly painful and I thought I was dying.
19- I was a Disney employee for almost 2 years. It was kind of a nightmare, but I miss living in Florida.
20- My grandpa died just over a year ago, but I still can't think about him without crying.
21- My grandma died almost exactly a year after my grandpa, I haven't even begun to internalize it...
22- I love the killers, franz ferdinand, and Muse more than any other bands. ever.
23- I have been thrown off of a mechanical bull. My leg was so badly bruised that it hurt to walk/ sit. It was totally worth it though.
24- I have been known to quote really obscure movies... no one ever gets it though... a lot of people just think I say really stupid and weird shit all the time... I guess I do that too though, so it evens out.
25- umm... I am always cold. it's about 70 degrees in my house right now and I can't stop shivering.

I tag Samara and Carebear.

one word thing

TYPE ONLY 1 WORD. IT'S HARDER THAN YOU THINK!!!
1. Where is your cell phone? LOST!
2. Your significant other? hah- MIA
3. Your hair? changing
4. Your mother? great
5. Your father? kind
6. Your favorite thing? sleep!
7. Your dream last night? gone
8. Your favorite drink? ovaltine
9. Your dream/goal? peace
10. The room you're in? bedroom
11. Your fear? stupidity
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? gone!
13. Where were you last night? ...Marky's?
14. What you're not? crazy
15. Muffins? ...cupcakes?
16. One of your wish list items? rent...
17. Where you grew up? t-town
18. The last thing you did? worked
19. What are you wearing? PJs
20. Your TV? useless
21. Time is? ....nonexistent....
22. Your computer? sucks
23. Your life? ....yeah...
24. Your mood? entertained
25. Missing someone? nope
26. Your car? small
27. Something you're not wearing? socks
28. Missing? bed
29. Your summer? hot
30. Your favorite color? red
31. When is the last time you laughed? today
32. Last time you cried? ugh... monday
33. Who will/would re-post this? Carebear
34. Four people who e-mail me: stupid question.
35. Three of my favorite foods: DP Doughs, Pasta, Mexican
36. Four places I would rather be right now? Texas, St. George, Caliente, San Fransisco!

Layoffs :(

according to forbes.com there have been 337,625 since Nov.1 2008. Holy crap. 138,152 of those were in January alone.

also- check this out... http://www.forbes.com/feeds/ap/2009/01/27/ap5972615.html

It blows my mind that the job market is so tight everywhere else, and yet totally open here in ghetto-town. I actually have 2 job interviews this week. Hopefully I get the one tomorrow and not the one on thursday, but honestly I'd be okay with either one... something to supplement my income :)

close your eyes... clear your heart..

So much has happened since I last wrote.

First, my roommate moved out. She wasn't actually deported, but she would have been if she stayed in the country.

Second, I have two job interviews this week... I don't know if I'm going for a new job, or a second job... either way I hope I get one of them!

Third, I redid my blog!

okay so- apparently not enough happened that I really had much to write about, but I felt like writing anyways...

I like this version... a lot...

there maybe some mild language... I don't know... I didn't actually listen to this before I put it up...

2009 already?

people keep talking to me about some month called "December." Yeah.... I don't think I've heard of it... sounds made up to me.

Dad and I went to court for that total crap speeding ticket I got. The Prosecutor said we could fight it if we wanted to, but she's never lost a case like this before, and regardless of whether or not I'm charged for the same offense the fine would be the same. So we paid it, and by 'we' I mean 'dad'. Thanks for that papa- I was able to pay my rent by myself this month, but I wouldn't have if I paid that ticket.

I've made a few goals, and being that it's the beginning of the year I guess you could call them New Years Resolutions. You COULD call them that, but I don't. I'd like to call them "I'm no longer crazy depressed and to prove it I'm going to do something with my life goals," but for short INLCDATPIIGTDSWMLG. yep. that's a good little nickname.

so anyways- my goals. First- Everyone in my house (myself included) are having financial problems, so to try and help this we're all trying to not eat out. I'm not really planning on cutting it out completely because if I did I wouldn't ever eat, but I am cutting it down a lot. maybe 2 times a month. that seems like a good amount.

second- totally cliche, but I want to get into better shape. I went to the doctor the other day and was distraught to find out that I had gained 10 pounds since the last time I went in however long ago that was. Camilla and I were talking about taking some fitness classes together at the local gym/ community college. I've started doing Pilates. I used to say that I really hated pilates, but I realized I've never really given it a fair try. I'm really liking it. I was surprised, but I actually really like pilates.

third- I'm moving on from my past and letting go of things. Some of you know I've started EMDR. For those of you who haven't heard of EMDR, here's a quick little video that I thought was kind of interesting. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zBtqWrs2-K0

I'm probably not going to be talking much about the EMDR here, or really anywhere else.... let's just say it's hard and I'm not sure I like it.... but thats really all I ever want to talk about it.

okay- so there are my INLCDATPIIGTDSWMLGs. Happy New Year everyone!